| not to look back. I feel so distant. |
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| Didn't go to sleep til 2 am. Had to get up at 8am to take a buddy to work. Since I was up already I just took my ass to the gym; my lazy ass probably wouldn't have gone if I hadn't. It's such a nice day I decided to vacuum my car, which needed it BADLY! Thanks to my dad yesterday, when I woke up he had wash my car for, he's great! hehehe. Now I'm exhasted, still need to take a shower. Maybe I will have to take a nap after that. :) It's been a good day so far! |
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| ...And I'm loving it. I just can't do the committed to one person thing right now. It's a selfish act but right now is my time to explore new worlds, meet new people and create a bigger network of friends. This past month has been so great. It's open a whole new world to me but it's also given me time to get back to old buddies. It makes me want to take more risks and do more things that are out of the ordinary. It's so easy to get comfortable with the usual. It's been nice to have a little change in my life. But the nice thing about it all, is that I will always have my closest people to rely on. My selfish act costed me my best friend. It's still hard sometimes going from seeing each other everyday to out of each others' lives. I still care and I still want to know what's happening in his world but it just doesn't work out that way. We grew so much and learned so much from each other but I guess I just gotta take what I've gained and go on. As much as I want my best friend, it just can't happen. We just want two different things. It's time to go on but it's so hard not to look back. I just gotta stay determind and be true to myself. |
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| I had a crazy weekend. It was a really different change of pace. I really needed it! I opened my mind to something I thought I would never do. It was amazing and a out of the body experience. |
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